Talking About It
I wanted to do this every week, and for an entire month I have been MIA.
I think I kept putting off this post because I was embarrassed that I didn't get this right the first time. I told myself I would do this once a week. I wanted to be successful at it, but as I am learning, we are only successful at the things we constantly are working at. This "work" I speak of includes the frequent failure, the difficult re commitment, the constant doubt, and the occasional successes.
I am someone that likes to get things right the first time (anyone with me?!) but having that expectation, I lose perspective and let myself down a lot because getting things right the first time RARELY HAPPENS!!!
When we are babies we don’t just pop out ready to run; we have to roll, and crawl, and try to walk..and then fall, and then try again…and when we finally have the fundamentals, we apply them. Now as adults, we don’t even think about it, we just get up and walk. We forget about the struggle because we are so far removed from it.
But this manifests in other ways.
Like my blog. I’m not good at blogging.
I don’t think I am a good writer sometimes, but I want to share what I’ve learned as best I can. I want to share what I’m learning as best I can. My goal is honesty. Honesty with myself and not excuses. (There is a fine line) Honestly, this is something that I didn’t get right the first time (expected) and I must work at it.
Giving myself these moments of full honesty propels me in a direction of change. I want to be better. The work will be hard, but I know it will be worth it. If I can apply the fundamentals, then maybe one day i will just do and not have to actively think about it.
One step at a time.
Every moment creates an opportunity to begin.